God has a way of showing you what still needs working on in a strange but loving way.  We sometimes cry out to Him to help us let things go or we say I’m leaving this with you Father because you can handle this situation better than I can because you are all knowing and understanding.  We leave the altar of prayer after giving our lip service and that’s that….or is it?  Maybe 2 or 3 months go by, sometimes it may take longer; but that which you claim you have given to the Father in prayer comes full circle and you feel that thing so deeply. It hurts so badly or it makes you so angry, but you said you gave it up.

This happened to me in recent months. , I experienced a reoccurrence of a long time battle with a family matter I had claimed to have released to Our Heavenly Father in prayer.   It came full circle, friends. It was like a train wreck for me. Like the engine of the train put on brakes and all the remaining cars collide into each other. Talking about an emotional jumble, I was messed up.  My feelings of hurt, angry, disappointment, nervousness and mind anguish. I experienced a deep sense of not being loved and depression. I wanted to retreat and not move to do anything else for or with my loved one.  I was wounded. But in my quiet time, my still time, I heard the soft whisper of the Lord saying “there is a difference in giving me something and avoiding it’.  He let me know I had not given the matter to Him, but I had been avoiding it.

See, if I had given it to Him in prayer; I would not have the emotional reaction (train wreck) when the letdown came.  Giving something completely to our Father is surrendering what we think and feel about the person or thing. It means you fully trust God to take control; give you peace and let your joy be full in Him.  Avoidance is you hiding your feelings or stuffing them until something happens and you release them.  Your intellect pushes the hurt to the back of your mind and covers it with blockage so it won’t come forth until an incident occurs, then it comes forth and out. It expresses itself because you have to have a release. It is a great mechanism to protect oneself. God’s word tells us to “Cast our cares on the Lord” (Psalm 55:22. 1Peter 5:7 AMPC).  Somethings we cannot handle and it’s okay. Our Father never meant for us to carry things alone. Trust Him.

When you pray give it all to him don’t stuff it, don’t hide it.  Remember beloved, your Father is able!!!! I’ve since given my “train wreck” relationship to our Father in Jesus name and truly He made me victorious.